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Apr. 21st, 2008 | 01:02 pm
mood: puzzled

So, I'm back in the school again, getting there early and getting it set up. It's not in the same location, but it's still a nice place with good benches and lots of space to work, and one wall all mirror. As I'm getting everything put together, students start showing up and getting ready, looking like a good size class. At one point, Mike and Phil and Ken all show up, and they're glad to see me, and glad that I'm teaching today so they can just work out. As usual, the whole place has the feel of waiting for Kenny to show up, but not really expecting him to. Maybe that feeling was always just in me....

Anyway, we have several new students in the class, and Phil & Mike are helping out, and one of them is a tall, athletic handsome-faced kid, looks like he's about 17-18, and he suddenly starts mouthing off to me. He figures he's a bad ass and he's not impressed with what I'm showing him. Mike and Phil back off like, "Hey it's your funeral, man", and I tell the kid if he's feeling so tough to go gear up and we can see who's bad ass.

I come out a bit later, and everyone else is seated around the floor waiting for the match, and the kid is geared up and looking confident. I come out with what little gear I usually wear, but I'm feeling less than confident. I know I'm out of shape, and this kid is strong enough that he might actually hurt me if I let him hit me. Mike starts us out, and I throw a simple test roundhouse, not even landing it, just coming close and making sure to catch him with the pad. And he suddenly stops, his face grows real pale and he takes off his gear and leaves. Mike shakes his head like "Whatever, kid", as he walks out the door and starts to help me take off my gear. But the whole time I'm watching this kid leave, I can't shake the feeling: was he scared and impressed with what little I did? Or was he disappointed and disgusted, and now doesn't want to waste time learning from me?

I couldn't tell as he was walking away.

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Sungazer

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from: [info]wilder_hiryu
date: Apr. 21st, 2008 07:25 pm (UTC)
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It doesn't sound like he was disgusted as he turned pale.

Of course, who knows with dreams...

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mightybakudan

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from: [info]mightybakudan
date: Apr. 21st, 2008 07:26 pm (UTC)
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Yeah, it was more the feeling I had as he was leaving, not so much the look in his face. And pale isn't the right way to describe it, it's hard to explain. :(

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A Dark and Lovely Place

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from: [info]angry_joe_buss
date: Apr. 21st, 2008 09:14 pm (UTC)
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Is there some test of some sort for you coming up? That seems to be the message here-that some how you are grading yourself against other people's opinions of who and what you are.

And on the subject of martial arts/sparring/testing, you wouldn't happen to have a kick shield, would you?

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mightybakudan

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from: [info]mightybakudan
date: Apr. 21st, 2008 09:15 pm (UTC)
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I don't, sorry. But Troy does. Is this a one-time borrowing or a long-term borrowing?

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A Dark and Lovely Place

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from: [info]angry_joe_buss
date: Apr. 21st, 2008 09:18 pm (UTC)
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One time--I ordered some but they won't arrive before Sunday.

I'll check with Troy.

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wardkebot

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from: [info]wardkebot
date: Apr. 22nd, 2008 04:42 pm (UTC)
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Maybe your heart is telling you to work out a little again...I recently found yoga again and I had forgotten how good it felt to do something just for me. Kind of difficult to jump back into the game should an opportunity arise if you're not ready to grab it when it shows up.

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mightybakudan

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from: [info]mightybakudan
date: Apr. 22nd, 2008 04:48 pm (UTC)
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That's possible. I've been giving thought to joining a good school I know near work, but then I give more thought to the fact that I can't even fit into a uniform anymore.....but that's changing too. ^_-

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wardkebot

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from: [info]wardkebot
date: Apr. 22nd, 2008 04:49 pm (UTC)
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YEAY! Dooooeeeet!

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Judith Brownlee

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from: [info]judithmb
date: Apr. 25th, 2008 11:17 pm (UTC)
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I'm sure you've heard this from me before, but here goes. In the dream, you are the expert. All of the content is coming from your mind. Ask yourself what part of you feels and acts like the young student. Ask yourself if the young student's response is fear or disgust---you are the one that knows the answer.

My feeling is that the younger student is you at the age. Does that ring any bells?

Love,
Mom

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